It is funny how at one moment you think you can't live without something... then later you realize that you never needed it at all. It's all about ripping the bandaid off early on. You know when a situation isn't right, yet you stay out of comfort. We all do it. You tell yourself that with work, things will get better and will figure itself out. But when is it ok to cut the cord?
Being a loyal person by nature I find this especially difficult. I will keep trying to figure it out until I'm miserable. Then in hindsight, I kick myself for wasting my own time. As I get older I realize that time is precious. Especially for women, we CANNOT be trapped in things that do not benefit us. Our time (and clocks) are too valuable. I look at selfish people and admire them. How it it so easy to just put yourself and your feelings first? I don't understand that concept. Caring for others is great, but you can not care for others if you are not taking care of yourself.
How many times have you second guessed your first instinct only to be proven right? I think intuition is so important. From whatever place it originates, it happens to be there for a reason. Listen to it! I think that we make excuses for things that we don't understand in hopes that the greater good will prevail. This needs to stop. Not everyone has the same values you do. Not everyone reacts the same. You must take it for its face value, nothing more. Even if a situation is disguised, it will still come to light in the end.
I'm finishing out this third month of the year feeling hopeful and blessed. Blessed to have amazing individuals around me. I'm blessed to know who I am and what I want out of life. I'm finally grasping at the idea that the people and things who are around you will be there if it's meant to be. You can not force fate. Plain and simple. I wish someone would have told me this 10 years ago, however I think it's one of those things you just need to learn through experience.
I'm handling heartbreak so much differently now. And I'm not just talking about romantic heartbreak. When things don't work out as planned or expected I deal with it rationally now. Why fret? When I was 19 going through one of the most drama filled years of my life I thought that would be the end of me. Looking back it seems so trivial. We don't know it while it's happening but we're stronger than we think.
This year will be amazing because I say it will be. Set your goals high and remember your worth. You never know what you're capable of until you power through your problems. Let's kill the rest of this year!